What’s Inside Comes Out..

Welcome back. I am happy to share with you as best as I know how. I’d like to give credit to a very special human who in fact taught me the valuable word projection. Projection is a display of something in some form. You can project your voice across the room, or you can project your unhealed or unprocessed trauma onto another person. Today I want to speak on the latter. Have you ever heard the phrase “hurt people hurt people”? Well I can prove how that statement holds value. Pain can be measured in many ways. Some people have a very high tolerance for it. I am one of them both physically and mentally. It takes a little bit more to penetrate my aura, although it can be done. I am not immune or above the experience of pain.

Our everyday life experiences shape us. We can either learn and grow, or repeat the cycle. We can either take what we call lemons and make lemonade or we can do nothing. We are absolutely in control of our emotions but it takes practice and discipline to do so. Take your experience in life. To be born with food and clean water. To be born into a family situation of some sort with loving energy. Put yourself on the opposite end. You can’t right? You can’t imagine being born having to beg on the streets for money, food, and shelter. I spent some time in India and a small village girl by the name of Depali showed me this lesson, along with many others.

We as a people have to normalize open communication and liberated dialogue. We as a people need to deal with our trauma because if not we project our insecurities, or fear, or distorted views of reality onto other people. We walk around with mask, both literally and worldly. We hide behind our desk jobs, we hide behind our status, we hide behind money, we hide behind whatever we can hold onto for shelter. We are not dealing with the things that we should deal with instead we are deflecting and finding fault in other people. Hurt people hurt people because they don’t even realize they are hurt. Find out what happen. Take some alone time. Assess the situation, what do you feel? What happened? What did you learn? How can you grow? What was the lesson? When you take time to work through these things you don’t repeat the cycle.

People get into abusive relationships and leave the person just to find themselves right in another situation if they don’t take time to heal. Abuse isn’t just physical it is also mental, verbal, sexual, and even spiritual. I can speak from experience. I’ve hurt people. I was hurting and hadn’t realized that I was projecting my nastiness on to them. It was never them, it was me because I had not stopped long enough to learn me. I needed to learn my breath. I was running away from myself, yet running in place. Once you deal with your shit you will see that there is no room to judge or point any fingers at anyone. Once you deal with your inner issues you won’t find the need to control another human. This is not love. That is control. Love is free. It’s a choice. We chose to live and that is how we are still here today. I thank you.

Racism is taught. Five totally different babies were placed in a room to play with each other. None of them refused. They all played and loved each other like there were no differences. These are things that we project. We project hatred. We can also project positivity. Take time to learn yourself. Sit with your thoughts. Write them down. Pray or meditate. Sit in stillness, clean up whatever residues you may have collected throughout this life.

May grace continue to be with you.

I am not afraid

Take a moment to elaborate or maybe a few seconds analyze the phrase “I am not afraid.” Take a deep breath, inhaling slowly from your nostrils on the end of the inhalation hold the breath before slowly exhaling through the nostrils. Take a moment and close your eyes and repeat this process. Ask yourself what that means to you. Ask yourself what is there to be afraid of. If and when you form a thought process jump into mine.

I am not afraid to me means living unapologetically. Living out loud. I am not afraid to be in my skin. I am not afraid to wear my hair in kinky coils, in its finest most natural state. I am not afraid to educate myself outside of my “social” or “expected” norms. I am not afraid of the dead, death, or the process in between. There is that moment though. I want to call it hesitation. I feel like hesitation can find its way into the very veins of your mind and  BOOM, a ventriloquist takes over. I feel like hesitation can make or break you. Hesitation and mindfulness are two different things here. In no way, shape, or form am I saying to make irrational  decisions. Hesitation is when you know you have it and you pause. The yes was already said, and you freeze. Why is this?

Let us begin again, and again, and again. Everyday that we spend breathing above ground is an opportunity for liberation. Not being afraid can bring you to liberation. Liberation of the mind, body, and soul. For a while I searched for this place and once I tasted it I loved it . I then  made a promise to myself to frequent this space often. Liberation comes in flows for me. In this moment I am exactly where I am supposed to be. In this moment the lessons that are being shown to me are for me. If I am afraid how will I level up? If I am afraid how will I move forward?

I want us to be strong. I am not afraid to speak up for the next person who I see would really love support. Speaking up and out against unjust things is apart of not being afraid. I don’t want you to become an activist, but when you see someone being mistreated and you have the capacity to stand up and speak out from a place of truth you should. We talk about this world being peaceful and such a good place to be if we could just… Right? It starts with you. You be the example. Do not be afraid. Lead, and trust that you are guided and protected. Lead with intuition, some might call this spirit. Lead with humility. I am not afraid to admit when I am at fault. This takes courage. Apologize often. If there is ever a misunderstanding always offer an apology. Words express genuine emotion, silence also does this. 

I’ll leave you with this you were born into a world naked and taken care of what changed? Are you not still supported by the earth beneath your feet? As I share these words with you I share these words with myself. 

Thank you for listening.  

Photography by: Healer D. Marie